Life is sometimes a funny ride, and perspective is everything. I am having a tough time with balancing work and life, and discovering a lot about myself and how I perceive things along this journey. I often enjoy the challenge of making it all work, but I get frustrated when it seems to not fit.
Running has taken a bit of a backseat for me lately. I am trying to figure out how to rebalance life to accommodate it a little better…thankfully I am still working out and feeling motivated, but I just can’t quite get back in the groove of hitting the pavement and running a weekly schedule. Last year at this time I was training for the Marine Corps Marathon. It was grueling, but so worth it. Early this year I signed up for the Wine Glass Marathon in October, thinking I could downgrade to the half marathon at any time. I have “downgraded” – meaning I waited until after the half was sold out, and now I am #421 on a waiting list to change my distance. Ugh.
Last year, I started my training and just never thought twice about not doing it. Every week I completed at least three runs, one being my long run. Sometimes I ran five times. I just went out and did it without thinking twice. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes the runs were horrific, but I did them anyway. Now I have a hard time motivating myself to get out there. I am in a running drought.
We all experience droughts of different sorts: the bad ones are times where we aren’t exercising, being intimate with our partners, or seeing doctors on a regular basis. These droughts hurt us physically and mentally, not to mention emotionally. There are other droughts that help – laying off the bad foods or booze, stopping chronic behaviors that are negative to other people like abuse or using someone, you get the drift.
My point is, when you’re in the drought, it’s hard to imagine that there’s water elsewhere. I remember not too long ago having a really happy time in my life and thinking, “I can’t even remember what sad feels like!”. Unfortunately, I also remember the opposite feeling, as most of us to. So how do we handle this? Well, we realize that droughts help us appreciate the rain. Also, we know that in most cases we have full control over our actions. I know how to run – so I should just get out there and DO IT. Be kind to yourself, but also push. Allow for failure, praise success. When you’ve been in a drought for long enough, you can’t just stand in the rain, you have to ease yourself in. Know that there is life outside of this current bubble you live in, and you can get there if you try.