In between Valentine’s Day and St. Patrick’s, Lowes does this amazing event with the MDA. They have cutouts of shamrocks at checkout, and for just $1 you can buy one, write your name on it, and it will go on their wall. The money goes to the MDA to fight against neuromuscular diseases.
Last year at this time, we had just figured out that Harry was suffering from a muscular disease. I was having a really hard time with it, and everything. Many days felt like a blur. I remember bringing Harry in to Lowe’s to return something. I put Harry and my item in my cart and proceeded to customer service. As I approached the desk, I felt like I was hit with the huge wall of shamrocks and it knocked the wind out of me. The cashier asked me if I was alright, I told her I didn’t know. I honestly don’t remember if I cried, but I did tell her this: “I’m sorry, it’s just that my little son here was just diagnosed with an unknown muscle disease, and seeing this wall really took me off guard.. I left without returning my item. I just wasn’t ready to deal with it all.
That response may seem extreme and dramatic, but that’s how it feels sometimes to be hit with something you’re not expecting. I even feel like this now, on occasion, when I’m caught off guard and my defenses aren’t up. It was much, much worse back then though.
This year is a different story. I can’t wait to buy my shamrock and write HARRY’S HEROES on it. I wish I had done it already for this post. Maybe you can all do that, send me pictures, and I’ll do a whole post of shamrocks.
The moral of my story is, wherever you are in whatever journey you’re on, it’s ok. It was okay for me to not want to deal with those little green shapes last year. You can say no and avoid whatever makes you that uncomfortable. Listen to your gut and do what you need.
On an extremely positive note, Harry is back to walking well, and is moving around the house with ease. He barely needs help walking from room to room. Progress.